I have completely let you all down. For the last god knows how many months I have not uttered a single word on this blog, on my blog, the one I loved dearly for about a year. You may ask why, and the truth is, I really don't know why, it just sort of happened. The main reason: I got busy. School has consumed my life, completely. I am taking 4 upper division classes per quarter, I am President of a club on campus that promotes safer-sex (would you expect anything less from me?), I volunteer in a psychology lab, and I work about 8-12 hours a week. When I'm not busy, I fill my time with something I truly love; nail polish (don't ask, it's a weird obsession). Instead of being the blogger, I am now the reader on many blogs on the interwebz. But alas, I still think of this, something I did enthrall myself with, from time to time.
Secondly, I really ran out of things to write. Nothing came to me, for months. Maybe it was due to the lack of sex I was having, maybe I just had writers block, I'm not really sure. I want to go ahead and say it's equal parts of both. However, you will be thrilled to know I have fucked since I've last posted, and of course it's with none other than my man, Edward.
Edward. What more is there to say about the man I am so madly in love with. You all thought we were going to end up apart, hah! We are still happily together, after 2 years and 2 months (23 months- a private joke between him and I). For the last 26 months Edward has been my rock, my everything, as I have finished up my Bachelor's in the sunny state of California. But now comes a new chapter in my, I mean ours, life: I'm moving back to the East Coast in August. Wow, it came that fast, didn't it? I still can't believe August is a little under 6 months away, and when that time comes I will be leaving everything I have for the man I love and a graduate school that will lead me into my dream career.
Don't get me wrong, I'm gaining so much by this move. Ultimately, my dream grad school is on the East Coast. For some reason no other grad school has the same type of program I'm looking for, even in California, which is quite odd if you ask me. So come August I will Bid Adieu to my parents, to my mother (who doesn't even like to talk about the move), my friends, this state, everything I have come to know and love in the last five and a half years, and I will venture into the land of cold, harsh winters and hot, sticky, humid summers. From there I will have the school of my dreams along with the man of my dreams, and for that I cannot be anything short of grateful. Minus leaving my mother and Cali, I look forward to this move. I'll end up with the Grandparentals for a while, but hopefully within a year I will have a nice apartment with one of my best friends from CA, which makes this all the more enjoyable!
Where does this leave Edward and I, you ask? Well, I'll tell you- we'll have a (semi) normal relationship in the same state! I actually never thought the day would come! Edward and I have a million plans for the future and I'm ecstatic to spend the rest of my life with him. He's come around to the idea of marriage, and I've come around to the point where I can say I don't need marriage, but I certainly would love to marry him. We want to travel, go on to higher education, have careers we love, have a family together- we want it all, just him and I together. After what seemed like the longest five months of my life (you know which five months I am referring to), our relationship has grown tremendously, and I can't be more happy to say that he is the only man I that gets me and wants me, because I'm perfect the way I am.
What about sex? Hah, did you forget who you're talking to? Sex, has and always will be, a part of my life. Within the last year of our relationship our sex life has expanded and explored new territories. We've tried anal, rimming, sex high, and countless new positions that we have become quite fond of (just thinking of my legs on his shoulders gets me a bit wet). Our sex life is everything I want and more, and I am a lucky bitch that has a man who knows how to work it. I know that Edward and I will continually explore each other's bodies along with different scenarios (a threesome with another woman is something we have spoken about, but won't happen for years if it ever does). I look forward to all the wild sex we're going to have, but most of all, I look forward to knowing it's with no one other than him. As he put it best, "Let's face it, we can both sleep with different people and come- I can sleep with a girl and come and you can sleep with a guy and come. But the orgasm, that comes from you, from the connection I have with you."
So dearest readers, where does that leave our relationship? Where does that leave this blog? I think it's time we say farewell. I know it's like I already have, but I never officially said "goodbye." So now I will, bye! ;) Seriously though, I love you all, even though there is not many of you, I still love you all. When I needed it most you were there for me, and this blog helped me cope with so many different things in my life I felt were going wrong. And then it helped me get my creativeness out into the world, which I really enjoyed. It's not that I don't enjoy it anymore, but I don't feel I need to blog to help me overcome my challenges, instead I have an amazing support system to help me thru it all. I can't say I won't ever blog again, that would be quite foolish. I can say I don't see it in the near future, but if it does happen again, I'll post it here. I love my blog; it's my work, no one else's. Maybe one day I'll be a super secret sex blogger that everyone reads but has no idea who I am, and in reality I'm a well-known sex therapist! Yes? No? Ah, we'll see.
Until then, I wish you all the best in your endeavors in life,
♥ Ms. D
p.s. I do still read your blogs! Y'all are some kinky ass fucks, but I still love you!
