Hot Hot (Phone) Sex.

i'm sitting here in my thong and i'm gonna make a post about the hot phone sex i had the other night. 

So after reading She Likes It Rough, a great couples sex blog, i was so turned on that i needed to touch myself. but i decided that it would be way more fun if i got my boyfriend to have phone sex with me. after telling him i was buck naked in bed & soaking wet he became hard & told me to say dirty things i wanted to do to him. i told him how much i wanted him to take control and be aggressive with me. i want him to fuck me and make me scream. i want him to keep fucking me even when it hurts. i want to feel pleasure & pain at the same time. once i told him he seemed hesitant at first for fear of hurting me but i think the idea turns him on. i really want to be his slut. i've always wanted him to be really aggressive and i finally asked for it. i think the next time we see each other we're going to have an amazing fuck session(s).

he told me to lick my fingers and make them moist and slowly lead them down my body. he wanted me to touch my breasts, stomach, hips, and very slowly make my way down to my plump clit. i reached my clit too fast and he told me to start over but to make my way up slowly, trailing my juices up my body. once i reached my mouth i sucked on each finger tasting myself and making my fingers more wet this time. i slowly trailed my fingers down my body once again. i told him when i reached my destination. he told me wanted me to make a 'V' and put one finger on each side of my clit and rub up and down. as i did i started to moan. it felt so good to finally touch my clit. i was soaking wet. he then told me he wanted me to do the same thing again with my other hand. so once again i did as he told me and worked my way down to my pussy. he then told me to stick those two fingers into my pussy while the other two continued to work on my clit. oh my god, it felt amazing. i was moaning into the phone and i could tell i was really turning him on.

as i was touching myself he told me things he wanted to do to me. he described this incredibly hot scenario in which he was fucking me like crazy. he told me he wanted to start off fingering me & playing with my clit to get me going. then once i'm wet enough, he'll make his way down with his tongue and play with my clit while he has two fingers in me touching my g-spot. right before i cum, he wants to pull out his fingers and stop using his tongue and shove his hard dick inside me and fuck me hard until i cum all over him. once i finish cumming, he wants to shove his dick inside my mouth & fuck my mouth until he's ready to cum. but instead of cumming down my throat like i love, he wants to cum in my face. it was turning me on so much when he said all of this. but he's not done...

he then said he wants to fuck me in the ass hard and cum inside it. i don't know why but i want him to cum inside me badly, the thought of that just turns me on. just feeling his cum in my ass and knowing how full i'm going to feel is going to drive me over the edge. afterwards he wants me suck his dick and be his little slut. just as he finished saying that my breaths became heavier and i could tell i was so close.

"baby keep going, moan for me, i want to hear you cum. think of me cumming in your mouth. think of me licking that clit of yours and fucking your pussy hard." 

those words sent me over the edge in seconds. i stared to cum and it was a powerful one. my whole body shook as i came and moaned and panted. he was so turned on that he told me to keep playing with myself so he could cum. as i continued to play with my wet clit his breath sped up and i could tell he was almost there. a few more moans from me and i heard him cum. i love the sounds he makes. it's even more of a turn on when i watch him finish. we were exhausted once we finished and just lay there feeling relaxed. 

it was truly one of our best phone sex sessions yet. i was so turned on. when i have phone sex with him i have a much stronger orgasm than i do with my vibrator. he just knows what to say to turn me on. so that was my first post about my sex life, i hope you guys like it! i'll post more probably about the times we've had sex in the past. comments would be great to let me know to continue these types of posts :)

Steamy late night readings.

i LOVE sex blogs. you really have no idea. just reading them turns me on. for being a 19 year old woman i am constantly thinking about sex & constantly wanting it. my boyfriend calls me a nymph. anyhoo, i kinda think i'm gonna post some dirty/kinky things on here when i feel like it. i want this blog to have a little more potential than just one in which i vent about issues in my life. i want to talk about my sex life & how amazing it is when it's actually active. 

we'll see how deep i dive into this type of erotic blogging.

Letting go of fear.

alright so me & le boyfriend talked last night. & after many tears and arguments, we realized what's the problem. i have huge issues is what it comes down to. i told him how much it upsets me that he acts like he doesn't care sometimes & all the stuff i wrote about in my last post. & after some drilling i finally got it into his head that this isn't a petty argument and that it's actually something that really upsets me. he finally got it & agreed he would be more conscious about how he acts & what he says. it made me feel bad though, like i'm asking for so much. but i don't see why it was so hard for him to comprehend it. his reasoning was because i always fight with him over bullshit he never knows when i'm actually being serious about something. cause truth is, i get mad over the dumbest things ever but in the end i realize i'm being a little whiny bitch for nothing.

well after all of that was said & done i said something to him that i've kept inside for a few months because i was too scared of saying it out loud. i told him that i think about us in the future & because we argue over dumb shit sometimes i'm afraid it's gonna push him away. or if when he goes through his little "man-periods" is he going to become too distant from me that i'm gonna want to leave him? we don't fight all the time, but i'll admit i do bring up fights over dumb shit, but that's because of something else. he does go through these phases where he subconsciously becomes distant from me & it really bothers me. it lasts a while & it's kinda like he's no longer emotionally invested in the relationship. & i can't help but think that we may not make it forever because of that stuff. 

once i said all of this to him he was like, "ahh, so this makes sense." & we both figured out why i bring up these ridiculous petty fights over nothing. i love my boyfriend so much that i am terrified of losing him. it scares me that he's gonna leave not because he's cheating but because of something i'm doing wrong, basically pushing him away. so basically, i'm sabotaging our relationship by starting these petty fights over bullshit. & i do it because i want him to show me how much he loves me & prove it to me. but in reality, he shouldn't have to prove himself to me because i know deep down he wouldn't leave me for no reason. 

so that is my next thing to work on, letting go of all of this fear and just accepting the fact that he's not gonna leave as long as i don't push him away. he told me the sweetest thing last night, that he would not ever work this hard to be with a girl, that i'm the one he loves & is crazy about & wants to be with me forever. & it really showed me how much he loves me and how stupid i am. i don't do any of this on purpose, it's all a psychological thing. but it all made me realize that i have to let this fear go & just live life with him. i think it's something i'll learn to do with time. i'm already working on it but it's not something i will get over in one day. all in all, i'm truly blessed to have such a amazing & caring boyfriend.

thank god we're both psychology majors ;P

Am I asking too much?

so i've decided to write something today. just because lately i've been feeling empty. i really dunno how to start this off because this one is one i don't want to write. i love my boyfriend, i really do. he's taught me so much in the time we've been together. he's been there for me more than anyone ever has other than my mother. he is the ultimate best friend. but there are somethings he does that just drives me crazy. maybe i'm too needy but am i the only girl in the whole wide world who likes compliments? i think not. i really do not expect him to tell me everyday how beautiful he finds me, but how hard it is to tell me once in a while that he really finds me gorgeous? 

it does kinda bother me that he doesn't compliment at all. maybe he does once in a blue moon but i have to ask for him to gimme a compliment. i hate fishing for them, i feel so desperate. but he never gives them to me, so i ask him, "do you find me pretty?" and he tells me yes. but why is it so hard for him to tell me that on his own? why do I have to ask for them? and when i ask he gets upset because i'm asking him. i just really do not understand why he can't compliment me.

& it's not only the compliments but every now & then he acts like nothing is a big deal to him. kinda like he doesn't care about anything. & it frustrates me to no end! i know he loves me & cares about me but when i ask him things his response is something along the lines of, "it's fine" or "sure," like nothing phases him. & when i confront him to let him know how i feel he acts like i'm the one being dramatic & looking too much into things. maybe i am, maybe i am a little too needy. but honestly, i'm kinda a simple girl in my eyes & i really don't think i'm asking too much. i thought most girls like hearing their boyfriends give them compliments. & i'm pretty damn sure most girls want their boyfriends to act like they care. is this just me? it's so frustrating. i would totally love some feedback. i hate picking fights over bullshit with him, but this stuff bothers me & it doesn't seem like it matters to him :/