"I just don't care anymore."

on friday night i had a very interesting conversation with one of my closest girl friends about her relationship with her "boyfriend." they have been together for what seems like forever and from the outside you would really think everything is pretty damn perfect. long story short, it's not. and it's not because all these things happened within the last year. so after a whole year of her dealing with all this bullshit, she's tired of it. and she isn't sure if that's what she wants anymore. but what i'm more concerned with is, what happens when you're tired of it all after being with someone for that long?

i know realistically not all relationships work out, especially ones that begin during high school. the chances are really slim for it to even make it past high school let alone make it to marriage. but what happens? maybe because i have never been in love before my boyfriend and maybe because i don't understand the dynamics of love within a relationship, but really, what happens when you have loved and known someone for so long and you just don't know if you want that anymore? is it due to boredom? when i asked her she said, "it took so long for him to change that i just don't care anymore." i could tell boredom did have a factor in it because he took so long that she just became bored with the situation and relationship. and what's harder is accepting the notion that one day you could possibly become bored with the one person you love, or worse, them become bored with you. it's terrifying to me. and yes you all could say i'm being naive because i haven't experienced any heartbreak or changes with people but i try so hard to be optimistic about relationships in general. i know that it may not last forever, i completely get that. but i always try to look at relationships in a positive light without getting my hopes up.

so that leads me to my question, what do you do at that point? do you continue to stay because this is all you have known for so long or do you leave with hopes of finding the next "the one?" how do you break away from someone you loved so much at one point? this isn't for those girls who easily get bored in relationships and constantly want something new, this is for the girls who have been in long relationships with guys they thought were the one and all of sudden things start to head down hill. not just like crazy outta control down hill but he's just not the person you thought he was.

i asked her if she could in all honesty say that she is happy with her relationship most of the day? her answer: "no, i can't say that i am." that right there scares the shit outta me. how do you handle it? because deep down, you're hoping things go back to how they were and praying you stop feeling & thinking the way you are.