Submissive

i am a sub. there is no doubt in my mind. sure, i occasionally love to dominate edward. i want to make him do things, but more than anything, i love being dominated. i love teasing his neck with kisses and licks, and feeling his hand clench around my hair and push me down to suck his dick as i force against it. i love it. i go nuts over it.

lately, whenever i fantasize about us, i always think about this one thing that happened when he was here last. i was going down on him, and in the midst of it i said something. he told me to repeat myself and i said no. he insisted i tell him, so i told him to make me. within five seconds of me saying that, he grabbed a fistful of hair and wrapped his other hand around my neck. "tell me." he said it with such seriousness and a look of furiousness in his eyes. i couldn't believe it, and what i couldn't believe more was how turned on i became after that, and how badly i wanted to obey his every command.

i constantly play that night over in my head. it turns me on like crazy. none of it scared me, it just amazed me that i am such a sub. i really thought i was about even on both, maybe a wee bit more on the sub side. but i think it's clear i'm definitely submissive. i cannot wait for june when he ties me up and blindfolds me. i can't wait until he smacks my ass as he fucks me. and i can't wait until he forces me down to suck his cock.