sometime last week me and edward had a semi-lengthy discussion about threesomes. we talked about the pros and cons, and what kind of threesome we would like to have if we ever have one.
of course he wants FMF & i want MFM. i want two guys all over me, and i wanna try DP. he wants two hot chicks all over him making his deepest fantasy come true. but more than anything, he wants to see me fuck a girl. i'm not going to lie, the thought kinda turns me on. he asked me if i would go down on her, and while i say no right now, i don't know how i would react in the moment. would i put my head between her legs and use my tongue on her pussy? to be honest, i'm not sure. but i don't think i would object to her going down on me, fingering me, or fucking me with a dildo. when i told him that, he was pretty turned on and i know he'd love it if it ever happened.
for me, if we ever did MFM, it's not about watching him touch another guy. in fact, i wouldn't want another guy sucking or touching his dick at all. i'd want the focus on me; having a dick in my cunt, a dick in my ass, or a dick in my mouth while i'm bent over taking it from behind. i asked him if seeing another man fuck me would turn him on, and he said he's not sure, but he'd be okay with it if it was only something we did together as a couple.
which leads us to jealousy. by nature, we both tend to get jealous, which is totally normal. but if we were ever to venture out and have a threesome, could we put jealousy past us after it happened? we both don't know the answer yet. if we did MFM, he said he'd probably be jealous, but he'd be okay with it if he knew i never went behind his back and fucked this guy. and he would want to know that when it's just us two, it literally is just us two, and i wouldn't be fantasizing about this other guy.
if we did FMF, it affects me more than him. i can't lie, i'd be terrified that he'd always want to have a threesome with her, or fantasize about her. i wouldn't be afraid he'd leave me, but i'd be afraid that if one day he was home alone bored, he'd call her and fuck her. i know, it appears i have trust issues. and while i trust him in ever aspect, this would be a completely different ballpark. and in all honesty, i think i'd get jealous if he focused more on her than me during the threesome. he told me he wouldn't, because at the end of the day, he still finds me incredible sexy and the most beautiful woman on this planet. that sure makes me feel good ;)
basically, we have decided that we will not do this anytime soon, especially since we live so far from one another. but, we have both agreed that if we decide to in the future (when we're living together), we need to set rules and boundaries and make sure it never effects our relationship. our relationship is our first priority, and until we know there is absolutely no chance of it being fucked up, we won't do it. it will require us both putting aside jealousy and realizing it's just sex. that may not be for years, but i'm open to possibly trying it later on down the line.
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