High Sex

the other day, i admitted something to edward that i was afraid to admit: i want to get high with him and have sex. i've never been high before, i've never smoked either, and it would be a lie to say i'm not curious about it. my dad smokes "reefer" everyday and he's offered it to me numerous times, but i've always decline cause, well, he's my dad, and that's just awkward.

so i figured since i love sex (who doesn't?) and how it feels, it would probably feel 1000x intensified high. and i'm not talking coke or anything serious, just weed. edward has never done it either, so it would be a first. but when i told him, i expected a flat out no, and instead he said, "i'll think about it."

i was floored. did my boyfriend who just tell me he'd think about it? i don't know why, but it just seemed so weird that he even said that. when i said "what?!" he said, "i know you're excited about it. i'm not saying yes, but i'm not saying no, i'll think about it. and i can tell you're smiling." i don't know why, but i did get kinda excited. i really don't want to get high with anyone but him. most of my friends get high, and they have been pressuring me since junior year of high school, but i always say no. i wanna do it with someone i trust, and i love edward. plus, i think the sex could be incredibly fun ;)

for now though, we're not going to because edward is still contemplating becoming a police officer. if the job he's at right now doesn't take off, he will likely apply for the police academy within the next year and a half. and i guess(?) that when you take the lie detector test, they ask you if you have used any drugs within the last 3 years, so he wants to be safe. if we do, i'll let you know ;)

p.s. does anyone still read this? haha.