Perfect.

i haven't posted anything in three days because for three days, everything has been absolutely perfect. i can't even begin to explain how things have been going between me and edward. it's like a light switch went on. he's been this loving and funny boyfriend for four days now. every night we talk we have a good time. last night was by far the best; we were flirting, messing around, being dumb, and calling each other names. and even though he was too exhausted to have phone sex, he didn't shoot down my advances in the usual way. he laughed and i could tell that if i was there we would have been all over each other but he politely told me he was too tired and wasn't up for it tonight. whenever i made dirty comments he'd laugh and i could tell it was genuine, which is all i can ask for.

all in all, we've had a great week so far. no arguing at all. we did talk the other days about how i'm more insecure lately because of everything that happened and how i need to stop living in fear. but i sorta had an epiphany wednesday night, which makes me think everything will get better for me. i appreciate edward trying more than anything. he's put aside his depression and wants us to work out. he still doesn't have too much faith but i really think in time all of that will change.

i know that when the divorce happens, it's gonna get bad again. i have faith it won't affect us as bad this time. i'm prepared and i know we're going to do everything we can to make it work. and since i'll be there in december i'll be able to comfort him more so than i do now. things are definitely turning up for us :)