Heart Aches.

i'm so sad. i'm having one of those i-miss-edward-so-much-it-hurts moment. i miss that boy with all my heart. i never want to go more than three months without seeing him again. it's too much. i can bear with three months, i got used to it. but this six months thing, it's killing me.

i think about him everyday. everything is so amazing between us now. we're so much closer. he even told me the other day that he is so proud of how i let go of jealousy. our relationship is on this new level. we don't bicker and we hardly fight. we just love one another. he tells me all the time that he loves me and that he's still as crazy about me as he was in the beginning.

i'm having such a hard moment right now. i haven't kissed the man i love in about four months. i haven't held his hand or touched his face in so long. i want more than anything to see him. i love him.

sigh, i wish i could stop with the water works. this is not helping me concentrate on my paper. maybe a shower will help calm me down.

also, his birthday is thursday. i'll post on that on friday probably. goodnight ladies & gents.